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i always never get the long chance to get online. been very busy and no internet at home so i cant really update it often, this blog. sorry.

xoxo
moodless berenai

F.r.i.e.n.d.s

F.r.i.e.n.d.s stands for forever relationship in eternity, never dying. Well. I just mAde that up. I'm a genius! Say it! Say it! ^_^ yeahhh. while F.u.c.k stands for friendship you can keep. So it's good to add up the word friends and fuck. Friends+fuck = fuck your friends! :D. Yah talking about friends. They make your world go round, they make you laugh, they make you cry, they make you do crazy things, but they also dissapoint you. And I hate being disappointed by anyone especially a friend. When you know you've sacrificed for them at times. Hurts when they dont see it. But I don't expect anything much. Sigh. They can take you for granted when they don't know you really actually care for them.. sometimes I don't know why but frienships get sour at some point .. Xoxo,

moving into new a new place..

so yeah. im moving outta ...hmm.. that B1.. brr.. regretted ever stayed there before. But last year I had no choice.. no more places and I stupidly wanted twin sharing. argh...

ok. new place. new life. new housemates... tim, sujee and zhing.. hope we'll co-operate nicely there honeys.

many things to buy..house is kinda empty..

im not feeling well.. =(

but i have a responsiblity to move in all my stuff and cleaning up the house too..

so yeah.

a new semester is starting next week.. read the lecture notes today.
B.O.R.I.N.G AND FUCKING DRY!


dear lord.. i wonder i am i gonna survive.. POuts!.. ANATOMY OF THE EARS for sensation and perception slides DIDNT EVEN HAVE PICTURES!!! HOW THE HELL CAN WE STUDY THE PHYSIOLOGY AND ANATOMY IF THERE ARE NO PICTURES????????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!

But i believe Mr. ALEX my fav fav lecturer =D can make it good and understanable.


and Im so happy mabel is freee to do anythingg! hahaah !! *spanks mabel's ass*

right now i watching jason and the girls dance for orientation.. wow.. they're good. im proud of my bestie =)

thats it for now..

im going for cell group with my church members

xoxo
unwell-bidayuh girl

alone in the lift with an indonesian pervert looking worker!

omg omg omg!! yesterday i was in the lift alone at night with one indonesian worker and he kept staring at me.. and i actually caught him staring at my dearest lovely BOOBS.


i really dont understand why can these people exist on earth. sheesh.anyway. like all animals have their own self defenses, eg, skunks let out awful smell when predators are near, iguana changes colour, porcupine shoots their spike..



Ivana Berenai Mason? I made him stop looking at me and got his facial expression changed because I ?? PRACTICALLY FAKED A FACE FIT OR SOME FACE MUSCLE DISORDER.. or a semi-tourrettes? i dont know. i made it up. it looked like this..




AND HE WAS SHOCKED! i saw his freakin eyes!! it widen and from 6th floor to the groundth floor onward, he kept looking down. HAHAHA!! SERVE YOU RIGHT A-HOLE!


xoxo,
looking good for good looking guys, but a beast from narnia for perverts!

Sentimental-ed by Yiruma. (20th june 2010, 11.45pm)

(Before you start reading this, press play on the song first so that you can feel what I feel when im typing this down)



As I write these words, the sound of the piano fills the air.. enters into my ears and invading my brain cells with peace. I feel like falling in love with this Yiruma number. Its called “the moment”. The way the piano plays really make me feel like it’s “the moment” of my life where it is at its emotional climax.. like falling in love and having the one you love and will love for the rest of your life, beside you. But alas.. I am not in love .. yet. Not desperate for it though..But I can really feel that I AM in love when listening to this music. *breathes out* how sentimental can life be when it comes to listening to this kind of soft piano music. It really brings out the emotions in you.. Right now, I feel so sentimental and heavy hearted with a mixed feeling of longing for someone who is randomly coming into my mind from time to time. im so emo this is soo not ivana mason that you all have seen. Yeah, you’re lucky you get to read about my other side here which I am a bit shy to show but don’t mind sharing.. it just explains who I really am inside out.. nah im not always happy like I am in front of you.. so smiley so hyper.. when I go back to my room, spending hours alone here.. makes me a lonelier,poetic person inside.. And listening to this piano music gives me satisfaction somehow because it brings out my inner emotions. Makes it easier to let out all the things in my heart so that I can even write a poem about the deepest thing you can ever imagine coming out from me.
Now my soul feels like its floating and my head feels so light that I should actually experience OBE now lol. OBE stands for out of body experience. Well, I never experience that before though, but im waiting for a time to feel it haha.
Its almost 12 am.. no internet line and alone in this whole apartment.. I don’t know when am I sleeping.. gosh im soo alone. When I happen to fall asleep later, I feel like waking up from sleep to know that im in heaven suddenly and having a tour around with Jesus as my tour guide.. then, come back to my own body again in the morning to write about what I see in my blog lol I want that how I wish ^^

Arh.the next track by Yiruma!.. this one. Is .. urgh. Its like..You know when you have a crush on someone and your heart just leaps when he is around or when he talks to you or even when you remember the times when you are with him, and laughing with him in a beautiful place.. or imagine so. Lol its this track! Its called.. “the scenery begins”. Ah my gosh. My heart is feeling so lazy to pump now lol. There’s this one person I suddenly have heart leaping moments for.. if I were his girlfriend, and if I knew how to play the piano, I’d play this track for him on the top floor of the highest building in town with him on the table of a candle light dinner watching me dedicating this song to him.. and with a rose in his hands waiting for me to be done playing …so he could put the rose at my ears after that and and and…. =( kiss me on my forehead.. huuuuuuuuuu :’( that’s my dream date.. gosh. This music really plays around with my desires !!! YIRUMA IM SOO GONNA KILL YOU. Literally. Lol.i just love love love love all the musical pieces he plays!!
Ahh.. talking about love. I just hope the next love I am going to have is going to last forever. I don’t want to search for the one anymore after him.. the next one should be my last one. I don’t want to face separation anymore. Hurts so bad……… I cant bear to face that again…….. And I hope it’s the guy im having a crush on now to be the one im going to have a life with in the castle with ponnies and unicorns as our pets.. and birds and lovely animals helping me to make my dress everyday with a lovely song. ^^ I soo want an impossible fairy tale ever after life. Like what pastor Kevin told us in church yesterday.. no guy that you will have will be soo perfect. Because God made them the way they are behaving now. But anyways, I don’t want to destroy my hopes of ever getting married one day =D I will but not so soon maybe. I don’t know what the future holds but I pray to God that I would have a fairy tale life and NEVER GONNA EAT ANY KIND OF APPLES anyone offers. ^^ sounds familiar?? Go figure :P
Ok.. sentimental feeling is fading away slowly now. I shall stop pouring my sentimental thoughts out already.
Hope you are feeling relaxed now as you listen to the music that I am listening to..
Thank you for visiting vana’s sentimental world.

Xoxo,
Ivana Tiffany Berenai Mason

A story which made my hair standing on ends.. and left me with a pitiful sorrow feeling.

The people mentioned in this story shall remain anonymous. This is just to tell YOU who's reading this, to be AWARE of everyone in your surroundings.. especially in West Malaysia.. BE CAREFUL WITH THE PEOPLE YOU MIX WITH OR ENCOUNTER.. Because they might just put some voodoo on you. Oh so you're rolling your eyes and smiling with disbelief at this sentences? BELIEVE ME. Black magic and the supernaturals do exist. They are all works of the Satan. And oh boy he's loving every torture a human goes through from this.






Today I heard about a sad story of an innocent young girl who died....and she died of what? medically speaking?... NOTHING.


Medical doctors couldnt even save her. They suspected that she had kidney problems, or respiratory infections.. heart diseases. but no... they found nothing. And saddest thing was.. for a long time, she has suffered pain which didnt have a cause at all.. why ?
because...an idiot, brainless,inhumane,psycho person has put a kind of strong killer spell on her.

It appeared that there was a rejected love interest goin on.. The crazy fella had a main target in mind that If he cant have her, same goes to other guys. and he eventually went to perform a murder voodoo on her.. leaving her suffering to her last days.

WHY WOULD ANYONE DO THIS???... Her family was awfully devastated by her death. How she was loved so much by everyone.

Police report cant be done obviously because they have no obvious LOGICAL proof that he killed her through black magic. sad isnt it?..

I was so shocked by this story because i didnt know that this actually happens in our community. Felt awfully sad for her family and kinda angry about how people did this to such an innocent being.

Dear all, whatever religion you are,I ask of you.. REMEMBER to pray for your God to protect you. Dont treat others badly because who knows they might just get back at you with these kind of manner. and also, as you read this, I am praying for your safety and your health. may God be with you always, and dont mess around with strangers even when they have provoked you.

May the lord also be with the family of the girl who just departed and bless her poor soul.

So do take this story as a reminder for you wherever you are.


xoxo
a concerned bidayuh girl

B.I.J stands for BERENAI.ITCHES.JASON

im in elab campus with jason seng yew wei~~~ waiting for mummy and daddy to come back from some business talk somewhere in kl !! sheesh.. i dont like business talks.. ahh~ missing IMU... after this gonna watch SOHAI PENG caressing and fondling Jason on the right spot in her house woohoo~~!! free porn!!! =D oh and this boy next to me here is cursing to look for a freakin bee to win passes to that MTV world stage etc i dont knw.. ahh~~ stupid! bongok.. the bee is in my ass laahh =P

got to go~

xoxo,
bidayuh-iban girl.