church

I feel that i cant concentrate in church nowadays.. not because of me losing faith in God. its just this person I keep distracting myself with.

THIS HAS TO STOP!

...

the next IMU music club's acoustic night.
I SWEAR IM GONNA SING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

but what song should I sing?

anyways no one can stop me or laugh at me.

shit u!

heart

TODAY. He ate my heart. just few hours ago. I'm heartless.

one of those sarawakian stories

so when I first touched down in kuching right, as soon as i got home, my tayung (means grandma in bidayuh) served me with this bidayuh dish called DAWU BANDUNG!! cooked with chillie and hot rice! slurps!



there's a song for it!!

KAI LI! SUJEE! MABEL! MOON! TIM! SING IT!!




"DAWU BANDUNG MUNE NUH PANGKAH! TITIK BICHIN NGANCAK NUH SIDIK! AMU IRAK AKU PUN IRAK! LUPET KAIN NGANCHAK KU MARIK! PHEWEIIITT!"

Kaik kinde puan rati sanda aku yuh? en manih cheh.. kaik sah. itin nuh amu tik maca kayuh da dasan ku atik tik, puan rati?

kinde ah? puan kah?

hahahahah


translation? go google.


anyways!.. my tayung.. she's so cute! she's beginning to experiment with technologies.

oh btw, thanks Wei Wen for the roti, my tayung loves it!




and I like it too. =)


so back to my tayung! she has been camwhoring with my phone man! this is the result!











It aint so professional lah but she made an initiative to explore the camwhoring phenomenon!


hahaaaaaaa

Dedicated to my babes.. you know who you are..

I guess everyone goes through the same things in life. So here's a song for you guys..





Everybody's got something, they have to leave behind.
One regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time.
There's no use looking back or wondering,
How it could be now or neither been. All these I know but still I cant find ways to let you go.

I never had a dream come true.

Till the day that i found you.

Even though I PRETEND that I'VE MOVED ON.

You're always be my baby.

I never found the words to say, you're the one I think about each day.

And I know no matter where love takes me to.

A part of me will always be with you.

You'll always be the dream that fills my head
You'll always be the one I'll never forget.

No matter how I try and try
I just can't say goodbye

I never had a dream come true.

Till the day that i found you.

Even though I PRETEND that I'VE MOVED ON.

You're always be my baby.

I never found the words to say, you're the one I think about each day.

And I know no matter where love takes me to.


A part of me will always be with you...

The return of a native!

And so the native studying in IMU went back to the home land of her own! meeting her clan back in Kuching, Sarawak.

One of those days of the holiday, MY native family (made out of Iban and Bidayuh PEOPLE)



decided to have a nice family day out to the beach~



and so the Bidayuh oldies discovered something upon entering the place!






shoot! and they were the ones tellin me excitedly in the car that they wanted to go nude! sorry oldies.. i guess you gotta find other private beaches. ya know..


So we got in and my head hunting dad and I WERE AMAZED BY THE RAINFOREST SURROUND! WE FELT LIKE WE WERE REALLY HOME! uugaga!! nghia!! agheenhihaaah!

me: dad! look at that flying babi! SUMPIT IT! SUMPIT! APUUU AKAII INDAI! babi nemu terbai! cibai!.. (oops. the last thing was a typing error! that could be in the Iban dictionary pretty soon, coz i have heard many ibans beginning to use it widely in their daily stresses up situations!)




And the beach was beautiful.. its been so long since I came here for a picnic. *tears rolling*





and the natives started to rest in a shady place they have found!



wow! nowadays natives are so AH LIAN/ LALA WANNA BE! they actually did the 1,2,3,4 thing in the picture! from right Encik nuieng is doing the number 1 ah lian pose, next to him is encik Taes with the number 2 pose, and Ms. Rangem with the number 3 pose and the most left is ms. telly with the number 4 pose! NICE POSE IBAN/BIDAYUH'S!

the oldies got horny and lovely~ my grandparents are so sweet larr..



and the younger old ones(my parents) got even horni-er-rer and gave me this!





scenery was awesome man on that day. though it was freakin hot. was worth it~



And so! the natives decided to go home!

but wait a minute! this particular native still wants to hunt for flying babi (pigs)!



"its there!"



"WTF! THE PIG JUST HIJACKED A PLANE! WE SHOULD SUMPIT THIS THING! "

OK CHILL...

The natives then went back home.. back to brokeback mawuntain.
see. this iz werh we hail frum.





howdy ma'am.

heaf a naiz dey today.

xoxo
bidayuh with multiple identities

forget what i said

I shouldn't miss my ex. He's ALREADY an ex. He shouldn't be missed. I need to move on!!! raggghhhh.... someone just slapped me and told me to move on. so I am doing it..! =D

ra ra ah ah ah!
rama ma ma ma!
gaga u la la!

xoxo
new berenai haha

wait a sec..

im missing my ex boyfriend so badly.

=(

why..

going home

Im in the airport.

in starbucks now listening to my favourite kinda music.
JAZZ!!! and oh! my soul! is drifting away as though i aint in malaysia!!!

In kuching i shall be in a week time.

Im going home =)

im missing people already back in BJ..

but im missing my family more.

nothing feels as good as home.

i love you, you whose reading this!

xoxo
the bidayuh

omg omg!!

i just found out that this guy actually existed!???????

LIKE HE'S THE MOST CUTEST CREATURE ON EARTH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!?????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

I CAN JUST DROOOOOOL... and watch myself die in love..

i mean look at this!






RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA..



HAHAHAHAHAHHA


i think i took too much nasi briyani la.

dayum!


peace to mankind!

IM HYPER! =D


xoxo

Dream....

Dreams...




may resemble many conflict in your innermost thoughts.




Maybe a prophecy..




It may also be just the opposite of what you have interpreted out of it.

or maybe.

Dreams just dont mean anything.

I dreamt few days ago.. of a pleasant looking boy that i know of in campus.I dont talk to him, I always see him..

alone

never hanging out with friends and he carries his orange backpack everywhere.




I find him...... full of innocence.. i dont know how to say it but everytime he passes by, i'd look at his direction and this wave of heaviness just sets in. I AM NOT SURE WHY..

and surprisingly, in church, when i'm praise and worshipping, i can feel this strong sense of feeling that he is near he is around, this boy will come to mind.
Is he supposed to be my guardian angel?..

everytime i hear some slow and sad kind of classical music.. his image comes to mind.. why..

so he was in my dream for few nights.

The first dream was, I was in the library sitting next to him, and we talked and months passed us by and we were still sitting there in the same spot, chatting laughing..

and he suddenly said.. i'm leaving to somewhere soon..

and my heart dropped. (trust me. In reality, i never talked to this boy before.)

IN THE DREAM, i enjoyed the friendship, the company. it wasnt anything about falling in love. Just the friendship meant a lot to me. and losing him as someone close leaves me so devastated and left me shattered into pieces.



and i replied him.. we should have known each other earlier.. from the start.

And he gave me the saddest smile on earth. like a beautiful rose about to decolorize in sorrow.



and replied.. I know..

W.E.I.R.D

I never had very strong feelings like this before.. because i dreamt of him again few nights ago.

And in this dream.. I think i fell in love with him? and i wore a shirt with his name at the back of it.. wearing it out and proud of it.

ARGH~~~!!!! WHAT IS GOIN ON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


so i guess dreams can really leave you to wonder...

if it was part of fate?

what if...


nah..

ok
ok

i admit


This boy IS cute...

I may unconsciously desire him.. heeeee.

xoxo
dreaming berenai

selamat hari merdeka

Its Malaysia's independance day!



My lovely housemates and I decided to make this one Malaysia thing at home by cooking together, and havin a typical malaysian lunch. We ARE indeed one Malaysia in the first place in our whole apartment. All have different races in the house. We have



Chinese @ Lai Siew Tim and Zhin Ling



Indian @ Sujeetra Sundreasan



Bidayuh @me



We invited Grace over to lunch with us yesterday.
The night before we went to Bukit jalil park and met up with Tim's boyfriend and his friends to play some fireworks and had some champagne and junks on the hill top.We lighted the remainder of Tim's fireworks from some occasion during midnight when the clock struck 12.. well not exactly 12..say 12.42? There many ppl at the hill waiting for big fireworks to be played at the stadium but nah.. nothing happened. only a bit can be seen because the fireworks were played at the back of the stadium.


This is the top of the Bukit Jalil Hill early morning.



Next day, the lunch i talked about, we had some briyani rice!!
Chef: Sujee, Grace and Tim
Asst Chef: Ivana (me)

menu:
1) Briyani rice and hot spicy curry chicken plus popadam

2) Stewed vege with japanese tofu with Egg sauce

3) Herbal soup with chicken (no pictures were taken)
4) dessert---> Rambutan in cold syrup gravy(no pictures were taken)

Right there and then. we officially were FAT MALAYSIANS!!

And the best thing was?

IT was raining and windy outside AFTER LUNCH, and our eyes were heavy... ah.. nice wind. bed calling...

but we forced ourselves to finish up our Statistics.

and in the end i couldnt stand it I went to sleep lah!

=)

I enjoyed the delicious food and good company.

we all are blessed to enjoy little things in life.

so live life. and enjoy every little thing.

xoxo
THE bidayuh