A story which made my hair standing on ends.. and left me with a pitiful sorrow feeling.

The people mentioned in this story shall remain anonymous. This is just to tell YOU who's reading this, to be AWARE of everyone in your surroundings.. especially in West Malaysia.. BE CAREFUL WITH THE PEOPLE YOU MIX WITH OR ENCOUNTER.. Because they might just put some voodoo on you. Oh so you're rolling your eyes and smiling with disbelief at this sentences? BELIEVE ME. Black magic and the supernaturals do exist. They are all works of the Satan. And oh boy he's loving every torture a human goes through from this.






Today I heard about a sad story of an innocent young girl who died....and she died of what? medically speaking?... NOTHING.


Medical doctors couldnt even save her. They suspected that she had kidney problems, or respiratory infections.. heart diseases. but no... they found nothing. And saddest thing was.. for a long time, she has suffered pain which didnt have a cause at all.. why ?
because...an idiot, brainless,inhumane,psycho person has put a kind of strong killer spell on her.

It appeared that there was a rejected love interest goin on.. The crazy fella had a main target in mind that If he cant have her, same goes to other guys. and he eventually went to perform a murder voodoo on her.. leaving her suffering to her last days.

WHY WOULD ANYONE DO THIS???... Her family was awfully devastated by her death. How she was loved so much by everyone.

Police report cant be done obviously because they have no obvious LOGICAL proof that he killed her through black magic. sad isnt it?..

I was so shocked by this story because i didnt know that this actually happens in our community. Felt awfully sad for her family and kinda angry about how people did this to such an innocent being.

Dear all, whatever religion you are,I ask of you.. REMEMBER to pray for your God to protect you. Dont treat others badly because who knows they might just get back at you with these kind of manner. and also, as you read this, I am praying for your safety and your health. may God be with you always, and dont mess around with strangers even when they have provoked you.

May the lord also be with the family of the girl who just departed and bless her poor soul.

So do take this story as a reminder for you wherever you are.


xoxo
a concerned bidayuh girl

B.I.J stands for BERENAI.ITCHES.JASON

im in elab campus with jason seng yew wei~~~ waiting for mummy and daddy to come back from some business talk somewhere in kl !! sheesh.. i dont like business talks.. ahh~ missing IMU... after this gonna watch SOHAI PENG caressing and fondling Jason on the right spot in her house woohoo~~!! free porn!!! =D oh and this boy next to me here is cursing to look for a freakin bee to win passes to that MTV world stage etc i dont knw.. ahh~~ stupid! bongok.. the bee is in my ass laahh =P

got to go~

xoxo,
bidayuh-iban girl.

andu last aku ati..

sigh~ its my last day in kuching. many things to do today.. im going out to buy things to bring over that side. gosh. back in kl again. no mummy's cooking, tayung's neatness, and comfortable bed im in love with..

you knww. haha. i always think that leaving kuching to kl everytime after a long holiday is like dying. I tend to do all the things I wont be doing anymore that side, eat all the food I wont have that side, and treasure everything I see everywhere...lye in bed whole day to take in the comfort to be remembered when im back in kl.. kuching kl is not as far as overseas to malaysia. but hey.. HOME doesnt feel the same everywhere. the food especially. gosh. the places..

i didnt get to go to the beach this hols..because of my sensitive skin to the sun these days..doctor said i need to stay away from the sun.. i am a vampire,what can i say =P but i am definitely not related to edward cullen.. gee. never heard of any vampires who can sparkle under the sun :s i itch not sparkle ^^ i want rain and thunder storm and strong winds and gloomy days. =) soothes my soul.


last day in kuching.. today, im going to meet up with jaclyn chong ing ling(the booger of my life). coz we just dont have much time to spend coz she will be staying back here and we wont be hanging out as often as we did in the previous years. missing all those. but an hour of two should be enough to be together to spend. i miss her so much!! love ya jaclyn =D <3


im gonna miss kim too though.. i wont even get the chance to be with her this hols.. our hols are totally different. so NO JODOH. :(

i met up with my cousins last night and my aki (grandpa in iban). i chatted with them cuzzies and hell we had a lot to talk about. never I thought in my life I'd bond with my cousins from my dad's side. but i guess we suddenly share a common ground on SOMETHING. hmmmm...


things i havent ate in kuching so far~~ SARAWAK LAKSA.. KAMPUA MEE.. sigh. but so fattening. im fat enough d haiz.


so kl here i come. busy today so wont be bugging anybody. no time.

xoxo
bidayuh girl

~pissed~

ARGH.. ibans..im not trying to be racist but they just gossip and back stabs too much. is it in their blood or were they cursed to be that sinful?.. gosh. thank God im mixed with Bidayuh man. at least i get to choose my bidayuh side and not trapped in the Iban community. well not all ibans are bad. but SOME. NATURAL HYPOCRITES. even your own family members can backstab you. what the hell was that about peeps???? get a life la seriously.dont waste it by doing this kinda thing la.. so disgraceful.dont make me further embarrassed that my IC is stated IBAN. grr.. MAY THE LORD SHOW YOU THE CORRECT WAY OF LIVING. like seriously! urgh

why do you do this to me?

WHY... why is it that when i am trying my ass best to move on and forget about you, and suddenly you come back to me and say hi??

why???....

im so angry.. so dissapointed.. so.... emotional.

sigh...

whats god trying to tell me?

:(

following the waves of life events..

~THIS MAY BE TOO LATE BUT ITS A SUMMARY SINCE JANUARY~


since 31 dec/1stjan 2010: new years was celebrated at SENSO hilton.. wasnt that fun like yesteryears.. it was practically filled with old men bringing their mistress for the countdown and then after that go back hotel room and do "all the things in the world". *rolls eyes* can't they spend time with their wives or family? problem with men nowadays. once they've got the money, first thing in mind: FEMALE MANIPULATION. fuck off la. so pissed. going to die still want to do that. sigh.. anyway! deviating a moment there.. so to senso we went, my mom, dad and bff Kimberly Anding.. ahh.. but i was glad that new years was spent with my loved ones.






my parents said new year's this year was so not fun.. (coz they cant seem to enjoy dancing on the dancefloor..) wonder why though.. but THAT night, i also met up with my fellow senso dance buddy, yasmine my sis :) and also lynda was there with her boyfriend. not much of anything that night though.





but before we went to senso, Kim and i did videos!!! they were crazy ones la.. as usual... crazy me.. and a crazy bestie.






Jason's birthday was on the 10th January!!!!!!!!!!!! we hung out at that stupid D'santai with Wai Peng, Cady, Wei wen, Kwang howe.. and wai peng and i got him some sexay fitting singlet for him to slut out inda club. went to his house after that and that bitch.hell man. showed off all his gifts ayer.... but we had a night filled with laughter. as usual... =)





February 2010: went for this valentines day outing with my taurus gang~ and hell yeah we banged the cinema..and?? WORE PINK!!!! aww... we looked so un-taurus-ed as our house team was supposed to be black.. We went to watch movie~~ Percy jackson and the moonwalk thief~. In the movie, percy found out he was son of michael jackson and not poseidon. WTF?~~~ nah~ you know the story.. for those of you who have watched.. I need not explain. :) we enjoyed ourselves!!! ah~~ nice...! had dinner at delicious, midvalley..

Taurus as a group, we have done many crazy things together.. will always treasure what cheerleading have made us.. =)




February was kinda a bad month for me.. sigh.. things happened one after another.. my aunt passed away in feb. may the Lord Bless her soul.



:( furthermore, in feb, i broke up with the one i love soo much.. and its taking me forever to move on :( and.. living life without him after that was.. im just gonna remain speechless about it. too painful to talk about too heavy to think of the old times.. we werent meant to be.. but anyway, by any chance YOU are reading this,i just wanna say im sorry, and congratulations on your new life. i still think about you in random, during the day and night.. i hate it. All i want now is for that chapter of my life when you were in it, to be erased forever or get torn of from my book of life. other events happened in feb?... many. and shall be kept confidential. :(




and I thought, the start of 2010 wasnt that good at all. but there was also LIGHT to february despite the bad things which occured.. and its all because of my dear lord Jesus.. he led me to a church.. for me to worship him and to go to.. and started going without fail since then. i love you jesus :) now i go to City Harverst Church every week. thank the lord my faith has been brought alive.
i found new friends.. and i love making new friends..



=D so.. march.. nothing much... and i dont know which month was that, i went to genting, and port dickson, recently..




with mabel, kai li and moon...




i shall upload the video of us in genting.. where kai li, looks like a wheel-chair-first-timer-pusher, pushed mabel like the shopping complex was her house man! go watch the vid~~ hahahahha.. fun buddies of mine ^^ love them!





ahhhh~~.... being friends with these people sure make me go random places!




they like to bring me to places i dont know! and you should look at their faces when i got to know where they were gonna bring me! EVIL GRINS!!! raaaaaaagghhhh!! evil!!... lol!.. but anyways. without them i would be as sakai as a monkey from the deep jungles of sarawak. a gibbon maybe? i dont know but yeah. :) how i enjoyed going on a road trip with kai li mabel and moon.



:) and we even have our own road trip songs!! one from me and one from kai li!


CARE TO SING ALONG??? ITS A BIDAYUH TAPIOCA SONG! ITS CALLED: DAWU BANUNG



here goes~


dawu banung mune nuh pangkah,
titik bicin ngancak nuh sidik,
amu irak aku pun irak
lupet kain nagncak ku marik!


and kai li's road trip anthem is (i hope i rmbr)



smtg like:

hellow hellow??? my name's dibo!
here is something you should know!
if you want a gift! say this!
DING DIBOW DING DIBOW DIBOW DING!!!

:P tadaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!



lol... so lemme see.. april... nothing.. oh! i played futsal for the first time in IMU and i scored 3 goals and guess what!


the captain of my sports house is asking me to play for Taurus this year!! woohooo!!! i wanna rock my futsal world upside down baby! hee..


And im also selected to be to play for IMU in a MAPCU sports competition. Dont know what MAPCU stand for? its...



:) I just hope i can perform my best next month for the competition. Im so new to this game. :) pray for my victory, you whose reading this.


my gosh.. hasnt life been hectic and eventful for me??.. and all my thanks to the Lord.. i go through things with good real friends around me everyday in campus...
i love you all PS109.. not practicaly all.. MOST.. i shall say :)




and Jason my best bitch forever (BFF)..




plus wai peng. my horny bestie...



not forgettin also through longs texts, my 8 yr bff kim :)



and finally Jaclyn, who actually called me all the way from UK a few times just to ask if i was okay and to support me.. aww jaclyn.. cant believe we're still bff for 10 years even when we're so apart.. ^^




you all have supported me throughout..especially through my hard break up as it was my first one.. and it has hit me real hard..
and much hugs and kisses to all of you! i cant give them to you live though!hahaha people might think im a lesbian but i shall give you all virtually!



MUACKSS!! SLURP SLURP SLURP!!~~ <3 <3 <3


*breathes out*


I was voted as Vice president for the IMU JULY INTAKE ORIENTATION COMMITEE 2010 few months back :)

gotta do my job as a vice! cant be leaving things to others... PSYCHOLOGY'S NAME'S AT STAKE IF I DO SO! GOSH~~ i just wanna make psychology THE BEST COOLEST AND WELL-KNOWN in IMU.. coz we've got only 25 students overall so far out of the many pharmacy and medicine students :) and next time i shall aim to build and form a university .. INTERNATIONAL PSYCHOLOGICAL UNIVERSITY.. hahaha and have only 25 medicine students! BOOO!!!!!! lol! nah~ no hard feelings. i love my medic friends ;)


anyways~~~ fast frowarding to a greater event in my life.. hah! recently.. like last week.. i went to PERTH AUSTRALIA!! :)

how beautiful Perth was. so Peaceful.. you feel like spending your last days of life there... sigh... im missing perth already.. :(

well well well! in perth.. it was my first time encountering kangaroos LIVE!! wtf. it has always been on national geographic.. ahahah and i had my first animal porn upon entering the kangaroo place! two kangaroos were mating man! gosh! get a room!



haahahaa... sorry to porni-nize your eyes awhile.. anyway, my cousin Katrina has been bringing us around.



Very nice of her to take a leave just to bring us around. ^^
we went to the vineyard where wine was produced...


was a very serene place.. *breathes out again* how my heart can just stop beating to the calmness of the surroundings..

and yeah..IN THE CAVERSHAM WILDLIFE PARK i was surrounded by kangaroos and i couldnt get out!! they were asking for food!! scary! what if one of them box me in the eye! DAYUM!..


but they were so cute...you should see this fella scratching the hell out of its body man.. god~ must be feeling really good to scratch em' ribs ey.. dont mind me havin yer ribs bbq-ed for my birthday partay? ^^



haha those white kangaroos are the albinos.. like human beings too. they've got different coulours as well ;)


we then ventured on our own in the heart of perth, which is right in the middle of the city.. the town area.. my parents and I..




i just love venturing around! i guess its just in me blood~... we went cross the river over to south perth? and my god.. scenery was so nice... i can just sleep there and not do anything but to sit and sleep there for the rest of my life.. *breathes out again* was beautiful..






australia was cold as it was winter.. which explains why we were wearing extra clothings on top ^^ well the aussies are kinda used to it so they didnt wear as thick as my mum did teehee that bidayuh woman! cant stand the cold! i was okay with the temp! you know why? COZ I DIDNT SWEAT AT ALL AND MY RASHES WERE NOT ATTACKING MY SKIN!! weehoo~~!!.. unlike here in malaysia.. fooh~~ scratch scratch... hot.. sweating.... blehh~~

and we spent few days in the east of Perth, staying with tapuk Rubin, my kelabit granduncle and his family.. He brought us to this place.. not far frm his house.. and the evening was so nice..... gosh.... check this out! its like a free wallpaper thingie on google man!







and this is the place where all the rich people have their yatch and boats parked.. wow man.. beautiful... i wish i had one boat/yatch... sheesh. i should marry some RICH Australian man old man or some ugly man as long as he is rich, one day and ask him for a boat, and once i got hold of the boat, i divorce him and tell him that his eyes are too small for his face. WHY OF COURSE THATS A GOOD REASON! WHOSE EYES ARE BIGGER THAN THE FACE, asshole!.. lmao. only joking. of course, i wont be so desperate to marry a rich guy just for a fuh-reakin yatch. lol


My cousin markus brought us for dinner on the last day in perth.. :)
was very sweet of him to belanja us.. aww... :) and he was always laughing! like every second. gosh. he is just soo soo adorable. too bad he's my cousin HAHA.


hee hee hee ... so! where were we???

yahhh... and the next day we went back to Malaysia... i have lots to tell about perth and that would take me forever to write about it. :) pictures are on my facebook. do take a look at the sceneries.. amaze yourself in it enjoy the calming sceneries.. *breathes out longer this time*

i guess that has been happening since the start of this year..

i'll come update it soon :) since im so lifeless and SINGLE.. not to forget available now HAHA.

xoxo
Berenai

a new beginning shall i say?

oh my god. it REALLY has been awhile since i have been here.... and things have changed... many many things have changed in this life.. i shall record it when i can through here.. things i can share about.. with my beloved friends.. sigh. it has been rocky.. i meant about this life.

xoxo